No Body

Can it not be about my body?

Can it not be about the feeling of skin,
Or the softness of lips on the surface of sin,
Or the friction we've grown accustomed to,
From dirty porno fixes to romantic moving pictures,
It's always about films with you,
These movies,where people are bodies,
Chiseled or frizzled, suave, skinny and true,
With scripts of course written like those monogrammed letters in hotel lobbies,
Or desks in  school laboratories,
Scribbled with "I love you more than our molecular compounds,
Can ever allow for us to get close,
Damn these cellular walls
Damn you van der Waals"
And then with fat marker ink,
They crossed out with thin lines,
What they think,
While somebody adds with correction tape,
"JIWANG BABE",
By the side,
And by your side,
I'm alright,
As our words grow muted by the sound of candlelight,
And our fingers fidget with thoughts of what could be that night
When I hold your hand as we find out what sticks,
Sheets so cold but the heat takes hold, as you hold my
delusions for ransom,
And whispers echoing across a thousand rooms "Hey handsome",
Hey hotstuff,
Hey little death but bigger dooms,
And I've consumed,
Every single bluff,
I want the tinder in my flames to be that tender stuff,
And grind the visions of affection into some fairy dust,
That would blow into my eyes enough to ferry trust,
But I refuse to be my frame,
But I can't ask you to do the same,
So we left the game,
And my sense of shame, ,
Became these monologues, like
"If I was a floating mass of only thoughts,
And not my lack of strength or might,
Would it have been easier to fight?,
For you, and all that you've made me?
I know I'm not much for physiques,
Except the gravity of my wrongs"
Or maybe someday I'll be better,
Or lose some other parts of me,
But I won't beg for you to deceive,
And tell me what to believe,
Cause my sense of shame has wrought,
Its own story,
(Not a commentary,
Just becoming weary)
Anyway, if you're going to leave,

Can it not be about my body?

Please?